Whilst diving right into the novelty of Dave's return, I was basking in his company, I was aware of the guy he met in between our own meetings but it failed to bother me. We were both aware that we slept with other guys and I had met up with guys whilst knowing I would be with Dave later on the same day, so now, it was a bit hypocritical to let my feelings get in the way and start being bothered by what Dave did when I was not around. So a couple of weeks later, I found myself doing it again myself. I was unaware of what I was doing until Dean the sexy Rugby player turned up with a bottle of poppers for us both, I realised that it is just the way we all are despite not wanting to see it so I thought fuck it!
After Dean had left, I showered and as I was getting dressed, ready for Round 2 at Dave's, I noticed that Dean had left his Poppers.
Over at Dave's house, Dave greeted me at the door in his Gym wear, he knew I liked him in his gym wear,
but despite the gym gear, his skin smelt fresh. Dave had not been to the gym and was rampant. As we kissed, we moved over to the dining table. Dave pressed me against the table as he unfastened my trousers and then went down on me as I later returned the favour; I found myself even more turned on as I looked up at him in his gym vest hugging his body, the body that I was now wanting to be writhing against mine. After foreplay, Dave turned me around and bent me over the dining table, I pulled out the poppers that I had placed on the table and we both inhaled. Dave was so hard and I was buzzing as he went slow for a start. It was amazing as he spread both of my cheeks apart as he then went to thrust faster...it was a good night.
The following morning was the usual 'Walk of Shame' that was now a weekly ritual as I needed to get home to look as though I had spent the night there for when Ashley arrived.
I was getting use to the whole running around trying to meet people, mainly Dave and Ashley, I had considered the point in it all but I had found myself stuck. I was obviously starting to feel more comfortable around Ashley, all my better judgement had flown out of the window and I was starting to believe that I could finally have feelings for Ashley... it was still safe ground as long as I did not fall for his false I love you's. However, despite it still being a slow process there was a part of me that was starting to feel as though I could let him in eventually. I had considered that I did not trust him fully but in all honesty; he did not need to come over to see me, he did not need to do any of the things he had so far done nor any of the things he would still do; he wanted to see me, he wanted to do things for me, despite my reluctance and the intention was worth far more than any material object he constantly offered. I did consider whether he could live up to Dave and also if he may just be a back up for when Dave was out of the picture, I had no idea, also I thought it is probably better to carry on taking it one day at a time without allowing to be fed the bull shit that I had so far suffered from both parties. The approach was comfortable, easy and I finally felt free as I felt that now neither one has a hold over me. Neither one of these two men had really done anything that was an undeniable force and until I could no longer deny them, they would just be what they actually were and that was a fuck buddy. Now I was aware that feelings were in place but I just needed to keep a lid on them.
After telling Dave how I felt about him once upon a time... I decided not to tell Ashley that I was becoming a fool for it, it would only make things worse for me.
So to take the edge of things, I met up with a new guy. MrDaddy10 was a very well built guy who was just a train ride away for me and a fifteen minute drive for him, he was in his forties and looking for a fuck buddy who he could dominate in the bedroom... but someone who was looking to be dominated. He arrived at my door at 10pm on a Sunday night, we went into town for a few drinks to talk 'Office' which was code for the bedroom and then when we returned back at mine and the door was locked, he took control of me. He was very tender when laying me down but as soon as he got going I did not have a prayer! It was hot! I was tossed around the bedroom like a rag doll, he was firm with his hands and it felt great! The whole time he was ordering me to take it when he cranked up the pace and asking me it was what I liked and what I wanted, I was on the brink of climax for a while but would not allow myself until he was ready.
Afterwards, he got up and put his clothes on. He attempted the usual chit chat "so how you been?" etc eventually finishing with his parting words
Afterwards, he got up and put his clothes on. He attempted the usual chit chat "so how you been?" etc eventually finishing with his parting words
"see you soon...behave yourself"
it was an order but not meant too seriously, it was just slightly keeping in character. The truth was that I did want another round with MrDaddy10, he did something too me that had me trembling the whole time he was in control of me. His body was big and firm and he did own my body while I was in his hands and it felt great.
The following night after yet another afternoon lying to Ashley, I had gone over to Dave's for yet another masochist event although this time there was not quite another mystery man. Dave answered the door, smiled, said hello and then leaned in for a kiss. This was new and I was confused, that was until we walked around to the conservatory and saw his guest sitting there... his name was Jack, he looked like a librarian and his voice was deep enough to start a tsunami. After the meeting and greeting Jack and Dave sat down and discussed their lives; they spoke about work, cars and then jack mentioned the young stuff he was seeing. Spencer was 23 and in a relationship with a 21 year old girl who was expecting their first child just after Christmas. Spencer had begun seeing Jack after they met on a gay profile site, apparently Jack had offered him things and gave him money as Spencer was unemployed... Jack and Spencers' 'relationship' was exactly what Ashley was expecting of me, however me being independent, employed and not interested in other peoples money, meant that I knew better... plus I was able to see right through people.
After the Spencer talk, Jack started talking about going out to Thailand for three weeks, he said he needed a break, a break where he could travel around South East Asia at his leisure without having to think about work and probably the second son he never had...Spencer. I sat there and listened and was intrigued as he spoke of his last experience in Thailand , that was until he said
"You should come with me Dave"
I looked straight at Dave, he had only just returned from Thailand and they were already discussing him going out there again?!
"I was thinking of getting another stint in before Christmas"
My heart started to pound, harder and harder, I had just spent nearly a whole month away from this guy and as if that was not torture enough he was right in front me discussing it all over again.
"It may be nice to even stay over Christmas I think"
Then my heart sank. It was mid October and now I had to adapt to not seeing Dave over Christmas and after nearly a month without seeing him and again to prepare for another month as well as Christmas felt like it was going to be too much.
After Jack had gone up to bed, there was silence. Dave asked if I was OK, truth was that I probably would get use to the idea, after all I had not known Dave for too long...but who was I kidding. I decided to change the subject and instead I commented on how deep Jack's voice was.
The following morning, we had a warm beverage in bed and then I ventured home, I could not get it out of my head.
That afternoon Ashley came over, he was being weird.. he would not stop looking at me. I asked him why he kept staring as he never stared at me as much as he was today. Ashley said
"Cos I like looking at you!"
I did not need that kind of talk right now
"...besides, I'm going away for ten days"
I turned to him and stared...
"Why where are you going?"
Ashley looked down, then back up and then at me,
"It's not for another two weeks but I have got to go to Thailand as I have been having a house built and it's finished so i need to go and make sure that it's been done how I wanted"
I could not believe it, what the hell was going on?! It was looking uncanny that two constant beings were both planning to go to Thailand around the same time.
"Are you coming back?"
I asked, because I was unsure now
"YES! I'm going for ten days silly"
I wondered and therefore asked my questions
"...if you wanted to move there and now have a house built there then why would you want to stick around?"
Ashley responded...
"Because I have you"
failing to fall victim to his horse shit and remaining realistic I reasoned
"In all fairness, why on earth would someone of your age give up moving to Thailand, where you have wanted to move to, enough to have a house built all because of some 25 year old guy who you have known only a year?"
Ashley stared, vacant and said
"because it can be a holiday home for us"
he started to get angry
"YES! Why do you always doubt me?! I know we have had our moments and you are not exactly perfect yourself but at least TRY to believe for once"
I did not think he was to be believed and after all the attempts at manipulation, I knew that I was not falling for that...
To Be Continued...